1. Belton, TX. I really do love it here :)
2. Staying with Danielle in Dallas Friday night
3. DBU's Homecoming "Extravaganza" ;)
4. Katie and Grant's Wedding Shower at Sarah's!
5. Getting to help clean up after the shower with Danielle :)
6. Taqueria
7. Head-coverings ;)
8. Making fun of Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2
9. Introducing Danielle to all my new friends here
10. Driving (I've done a LOT of it this weekend!)
11. Hanging out more with the Wahlquists :). And, the Wahlquists in general
12. Finding out I'm on Lucy's top 3 ;) (Lucy is Sarah and David's almost-two-year-old daughter)
13. Cuddling with Maggie (their 7-month-old daughter) and watching her crawl on the floor
14. Beans (I have a huge container in my fridge now, thanks to Shower leftovers)
15. Knitting
16. Enjoying the fact that Danielle and I converse similarly (very VERY fast, lots of "side topics" - but of course, we always come back to what we were going to say earlier!)
17. Getting as many words in with Danielle as possible
18. More of His love and grace and freedom
19. Chipotle
20. Finding out married couples' love stories

:)

I'm going home tomorrow for Thanksgiving!! Can't tell you how stoked I am :). Sarah and the girls are driving with me as well! Roadtrip!! I'll get to show Sarah around Cypress :), and see my beautiful family once more!

Love you guys!

Hold on to Me when you are so tired
  When you are so tired
Of holding up your head

Steady on your feet, I will not let you stumble
  I will not let you stumble
I will not fall asleep

When you go out, when you come home
 Like a hedge, like a shield
I'll be your Guardian

When you are afraid, look out to the mountains
  Look out to the mountains
To the One who keeps you Safe

-"Guardian", Sandra McCracken

Last night we had our "Thanksgiving Feast" at Schoepf's Barbeque! This is the first picture that I've ever been in with my Lifegroup. I'd like to share it with you!

(Not everyone was able to come... we are missing Robert, Amelia, Grant, Sarah, Leah and a few others.)

Meet my new friends...

From Left to Right: Darron, Ray, Joey, Me, David, Lucy (Sarah's daughter), Mel, Sarah (who's holding Maggie, her other daughter), Carly, Meredith, Megan, and Katie. :)

Have a great day!!

Working on Design stuff is a lot more pleasant whenever I listen to podcasts (I'm trying my best to post this while not sounding like a hypocritical fool - a few months ago, I turned up my nose to podcasts, and probably posted about it, because I felt like if I did people would think that I think that I'm better than everyone else. However, I finally broke). I've started small, of course - first subscribed to Village Church podcast, then to Mars Hill, then to John Piper, then to Antioch Community Church College podcast whenever Sarah suggested a certain series to me. And now I'm pretty much addicted!

Anyways... these past few days I've been listening mostly to the ACC ones (because there are a LOT of them). And there is some great, great stuff. I just wanted to share two in particular, though I would just in general suggest that you subscribe and get series: Don't Be a Jerk, The Holy Spirit Series, Undone, Discipleship Series, and Knowing God's Will. If you enjoy listening to this kind of stuff, you will enjoy these. They are biblical, engaging, and very Christ-centered.

These two especially have made me say "yes and amen!", if you know what I mean. So if you have the time...

Don't Miss Jesus

Being Jesus' Disciple

To log away...


I'm sure that I've posted quite a few times in the past on what I want to be played at my wedding (I'm not being a girl. Everyone does that! ...Right?). But this list is constantly changing. So here's the newest addition/revision -

10,000 Angels by Sandra McCracken

How long you have trembled, in darkness weeping
No rest in language, no words to speak
But there in the wreckage, beneath bricks and blindness
Love has come, love has come for you

Against the night sky of your waiting
Your face is like starlight when he walks in
Everything worth keeping it comes through dying
And love has come, love has come for you

So lift up your heart now to this unfolding
All that has been broken, it will be restored
And here runs deep waters for all who are thirsty
Cause love has come, love has come for you

Ten thousand angels will light your pathway
Until the day breaks fully in the east
And they will surround you and make your way straight
Cause love has come, love has come for you
Oh love has come, love has come for you.




(I promise, I'm NOT hopeless. ...At least I hope ;)

A list will suffice:

1. Church was really good this morning! We're in a series about Freedom

2. Played bass as well. Fun stuff :). It was interesting going through this new Sunday morning routine; get to the church offices at 7:15, help load all the sound and music equipment into this trailer (think loading up for Camp or something), drive it over to the BCYC where we meet and unload everything, hook it all up, and practice. Pray together with the Pastors before the service. Service starts at 10:15, and usually ends at 12:15-ish. Load everything back into trailer. Etc. :) And I usually get food with everyone, so I end up getting back to the room around 2:45-3:00. Whew!

3. Had to work on the Collage of Death this weekend. Requirements: can't be multi-media (just use magazines), and must be on the same size of paper that we did the painting on (which was pretty big). That's a LOT of area to cover. And I usually LOVE collages... but this one was painful. Saturday night, basically just stared at the page for 3 hours. Literally didn't glue anything down. Realized I didn't have enough resources. Sarah Wahlquist saved the day and gave me a HUGE box of magazines she didn't need. And now, 5 hours later... I finally have a collage!

4. Got to watch first-hand UT beat the snot out of Baylor on Saturday. :) Oh, and I got to see my family too!

5. After this week of school, I'll basically just be in school the next Monday and then the week after Thanksgiving. Then there's finals, and I can come home for the Holidays! :)



Have a good week, all! I need to write this paper for Business due tomorrow. No biggie... :)

I've been thinking about this passage constantly this past week. I want to simply just post John 6. These words are some of the most powerful, if not the most powerful words Jesus spoke in His time on earth.

(After feeding the 5,000) ...
22 On the next day the crowd that remained on the other side of the sea saw that there had been only one boat there, and that Jesus had not entered the boat with his disciples, but that his disciples had gone away alone. 23 Other boats from Tiberias came near the place where they had eaten the bread after the Lord had given thanks. 24 So when the crowd saw that Jesus was not there, nor his disciples, they themselves got into the boats and went to Capernaum, seeking Jesus.

25 When they found him on the other side of the sea, they said to him, “Rabbi, when did you come here?” 26 Jesus answered them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, you are seeking me, not because you saw signs, but because you ate your fill of the loaves. 27 Do not labor for the food that perishes, but for the food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give to you. For on him God the Father has set his seal.” 28 Then they said to him, “What must we do, to be doing the works of God?” 29 Jesus answered them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in him whom he has sent.” 30 So they said to him, “Then what sign do you do, that we may see and believe you? What work do you perform? 31 Our fathers ate the manna in the wilderness; as it is written, ‘He gave them bread from heaven to eat.’” 32 Jesus then said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, it was not Moses who gave you the bread from heaven, but my Father gives you the true bread from heaven. 33 For the bread of God is he who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.” 34 They said to him, “Sir, give us this bread always.”

35 Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst. 36 But I said to you that you have seen me and yet do not believe. 37 All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out. 38 For I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will but the will of him who sent me. 39 And this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me, but raise it up on the last day. 40 For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.”

41 So the Jews grumbled about him, because he said, “I am the bread that came down from heaven.” 42 They said, “Is not this Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How does he now say, ‘I have come down from heaven’?” 43 Jesus answered them, “Do not grumble among yourselves. 44 No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him. And I will raise him up on the last day. 45 It is written in the Prophets, ‘And they will all be taught by God.’ Everyone who has heard and learned from the Father comes to me— 46 not that anyone has seen the Father except he who is from God; he has seen the Father. 47 Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes has eternal life. 48 I am the bread of life. 49 Your fathers ate the manna in the wilderness, and they died. 50 This is the bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. 51 I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. And the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.”

52 The Jews then disputed among themselves, saying, “How can this man give us his flesh to eat?” 53 So Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. 54 Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day. 55 For my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink. 56 Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me, and I in him. 57 As the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever feeds on me, he also will live because of me. 58 This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like the bread [3] the fathers ate and died. Whoever feeds on this bread will live forever.” 59 Jesus [4] said these things in the synagogue, as he taught at Capernaum.

60 When many of his disciples heard it, they said, “This is a hard saying; who can listen to it?” 61 But Jesus, knowing in himself that his disciples were grumbling about this, said to them, “Do you take offense at this? 62 Then what if you were to see the Son of Man ascending to where he was before? 63 It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh is no help at all. The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life. 64 But there are some of you who do not believe.” (For Jesus knew from the beginning who those were who did not believe, and who it was who would betray him.) 65 And he said, “This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless it is granted him by the Father.”


(This next part is one of my favorite disciple responses to Jesus Christ in the Gospels...)

66 After this many of his disciples turned back and no longer walked with him. 67 So Jesus said to the Twelve, “Do you want to go away as well?” 68 Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life, 69 and we have believed, and have come to know, that you are the Holy One of God.” 70 Jesus answered them, “Did I not choose you, the Twelve? And yet one of you is a devil.” 71 He spoke of Judas the son of Simon Iscariot, for he, one of the Twelve, was going to betray him.

1. Slept in
2. Old Testament was canceled (I mean, I love that class, but a canceled class is a canceled class :)
3. Public Speaking teacher didn't show up to class
4. #2 and #3 were both due to a soccer game today. Glad our priorities are in order
5. A Chipotle has opened in Temple (previously, the closest one was in Waco)
6. Because of said opening, they were giving out free burritos tonight! Got it
7. I'm playing MY bass again (I really need to give it a name. I usually just call her BFF)
8. I'm pretty much officially the church bass player - playing every Sunday now

(I'll continue this list with generic thoughts)

9. Being a "bass player" (still not sure if I've moved to "bass player" status - I've always just said "I can play the bass") automatically makes me pretty much a rare commodity apparently (like a left-footed soccer player). I promise you, I've had this conversation several times since I've gotten here - "WHY didn't you tell us that you played bass?!", and have heard something along the lines of "you are an answer to prayer" several times as well. Apparently people really just hate having to play bass ;). But, this is kind of the story of my life. Or at least the past 3 years ;). You know, I'm okay with it. I really do enjoy playing the bass. ONE of these days, though, I'll play keyboard... maybe :)
10. I'm really starting to get to know people in my church. It's quite wonderful! I'm still a "newbie", of course, which is also apparently a rare thing, because Freshman haven't really come in in years past. But I'm learning other people's stories and the history of this church plant and the Lifegroups, etc. It's all so fascinating! I really, really love learning about people. It's interesting because I'm not usually the newbie... but now I am just that, in every sense of the word! And I'm also usually at least 3-4 years younger than the people I'm with as well. But it's really neat; the college/young singles are pretty much melted together into one big group, and even then the families interact with us as well, so there really are no divisions. I like hanging out with older people :)
11. I've also realized that I'm getting to "that age" where "age" doesn't matter as much. It all kind of gets fuzzy. Which is cool, but at the same time has meant very awkward conversation for me at times :). It's getting harder and harder to tell people's age, because the older you get the less dramatic age gaps seem, if that makes sense. So, I'll meet someone, and I'll think, "this person could be IN college, could have just graduated, or they could be married with several kids, and it would all look pretty much the same to me". So I've given up on trying to pose the question as a risky guess (such as "So, are you in college?" - I asked that to a professor once; abandoned that one pretty quickly!) and have moved on to simply asking, "So, how old are you?" for more clear-cut context ;). I guess this is what "growing up" looks like!
12. I also don't really know whether or not to call people Mr./Mrs. Such-And-Such or by their first name, because I'm technically an "adult", but a very, very young adult still. Whenever I call people Mr./Mrs. Whatever here, they say, "Oh, just call me MyFirstName! You're making me feel old!". I'm learning :)
13. I really am starting to feel really, really comfortable at my church. I'm having fun conversations and laughing a lot - it's wonderful! It's getting less and less awkward and more and more familiar. I'm so blessed
14. I'm working on 3 scarves right now :). I LOVE knitting!
15. I got 3 letters today. BAM.

Alright, that's good for now. So excited to see my family Saturday at the UT/Baylor football game! :)

LKF's (Little Known Facts) About Me

1. I've had the exact same backpack since 6th grade (and I still use it every day here! It's a purple Jansport backpack. Lately, the zipper has been acting up... but I think that I can squeeze at least 2 more years out of it ;)

2. Now that I think about it, I also have been using the same lone pair of wind-pants (I actually don't know what to call them... they aren't "sweatpants" - they have that wind-resistant exterior) since 7th grade. I just recently ripped a small hole in the knee (though, just through the wind-resistant part, so it doesn't look TOO trashy ;) when playing volleyball. Remembering both #1 and 2 have made me realize that I really, really enjoy getting the money's worth out of things I own! That, and I also don't like change. Hey, it works for me!

3. My favorite color my entire life has been Blue... but I think it's changing (gasp!) to Purple. Watch out.

4. I've just in the past few minutes decided my Top Five Favorite Flowers (those who I know I categorize all my faves into lists will appreciate this ;), in no particular order: Daisies, Sunflowers, Irises, Wisteria, and Bouganvilla.

5. I still have a baby tooth in my mouth because there is no adult tooth under it. I'm going to in the near future get it taken out and have a tooth implanted in my mouth. Gross!



I was doing some Old Testament a few hours ago, and a random thought came to my mind. I guess I was just kind of imagining what it must be like for the Old Testament dudes like Abraham and Moses to meet Jesus in Heaven (and I'm not trying to be irreverent here - and I'm aware that I'm using anthropomorphic language, because I don't know how else to describe what it must be like!). Well, let's start with this idea: there's no indication that they even believed in life after death. So getting to Heaven must be pretty surprising for them in the first place. After they get there, I just imagine this huge de-briefing session (again - I'm not being irreverent, just imaginative!). Because, if you think about it, they did not have, as far as we can tell, a full grasp of the Trinity. Of course, the Creation accounts indicate some grasp of it, but I'm pretty sure that especially the earlier guys didn't know who Jesus is. So, if you can just imagine when they are in Heaven! God sits them down, and is like, "So here's the deal: this is my Son, Jesus. He is the Redeemer of all mankind. He paid the price that works of the Law could not pay; His blood covers all sins past and present, even YOURS, though you didn't even know that He existed or that He was going to die on the cross for you". I can just see them listening in wonder and awe of what God has done for His people. I guess this kind of applies to everyone who dies and goes to Heaven. I wonder if knowledge of the rest of God's work to redeem the earth just comes automatically when we get there, or if we learn about it. It's just a really cool thought to me.

Anyways... today's been a good day! Talk to you guys later! :)

Finally finished my painting :). I'm pretty proud of my work! I certainly worked very hard on it, and put a lot of time into it.

To describe the project: we were given choices of different black and white paintings; I chose this one, and then traced with tracing paper the lines of the painting onto my paper. After that, I basically just copied all the values in paint to make the painting look as much like the original as possible. Then, we were instructed to make 80% of the painting decorated with design elements - could be anything: words, shapes, lines, etc. So I chose to simply use swirls and dots, and the hymn "Great Is Thy Faithfulness" for the stairs and the back wall, and then the word "Grace" for the left black area and the word "Love" for the right black area.

Here's the finished product:

Well, yesterday was pretty chill. I didn't change clothes or leave the room at all, and basically just parked it in my bed the whole day. I started and finished a scarf, and got a long way on another one. Watched a good handful of GG episodes. Ate some MCC. Got a Chick-fil-A sandwich bought for me (thanks to Carly!) :). Had a disgusting time getting to sleep last night. Woke up several times feeling like my face was on fire. Got a cool washcloth to put on face. Just woke up, and am currently recalling the weirdest dream of all time I had last night (I re-wrote the 3rd LOTR movie).

Hopefully I'll be able to be more productive today (my painting in its entirety is due Monday... eek! But I'll post a picture of it when I'm done :). I have lunch plans with Carly, and a list of things that I could get done today. My throat still feel like someone took a vacuum to it and my ears are still aching... but the rest of me is feeling somewhat better. Maybe if I get up and do stuff energy will come back to me.

Well, wouldn't you know - it's about that time for the seasonal Molly sickness (I call it that because I honestly don't know what it is). This is how it ALWAYS goes, about twice a year: around the changing of the seasons, I start to get a little stuffy and sneezy (I usually am pretty clear), and then my throat starts to hurt a little. This is usually combined with a busy day or two, and then my body just starts to shut down and tell me to slow down. I get ache-y all over and my throat/ears hurt, and I feel warm. Though it's not always fun, it IS a good indicator that I need to just rest! So today I slept through chapel and Business, and have just been in my bed all day resting and knitting and watching a little Gilmore Girls (which I haven't in FOREVER... it's nice!) :). And my roommate even let me turn the air all the way up (according to her, it's "frigid" in here! haha). She's so wonderful - she's been taking such good care of me this week (the Sonic, MCC, she felt my forehead this morning... :).

Anyways... hope you guys have a great Friday, and a great weekend! Love you all.

This is a video about a man and his tortoise. I don't usually enjoy YouTube videos, but this one pretty much made me laugh the entire time. Enjoy :)







In case you guys wanted an update, my day COMPLETELY turned around after the not-being-able-to-give-blood incident (which I didn't post about, but here's the gist: I was really excited about giving blood, but then I was turned down because I didn't have enough iron in my blood. So that was a downer). After that, I went back to the room and took the most amazing 4-hour nap in the world. Then, my roommate bought me Sonic :), and I went to the church building to help babysit the kids of the leadership team for their leader meeting. I and this girl Bethany babysat about 10 children, all 5 and under. It was only 2 hours, and it was actually kind of fun, though hectic. BUT... here's the cool part - apparently, you get PAID when you do this!! So the church paid me 25 bucks! I thought it was just volunteer babysitting, which I would have totally been fine with. I'm telling you... God really does provide! This is the fourth time in the past 2 weeks where I've gotten unexpected/un-asked-for money - that one babysitting job I had that paid $15, when Mama and papa gave me some money when I came home this weekend :), when Jill's dad (Jill is the one that I drove home when I went back this weekend) gave me enough money to fill up my gas tank, and now this! How wonderful. I'm in good hands!!! :)



And my week is pretty much over, too. I have nothing major until next Monday. So now I can just relaaaax!



OH... and I found my ID!!!!! It was, literally, just on the floor. I don't know how I didn't see it before. Sarah, Jamie, and I all looked for it this morning. Praise the Lord!!

So, I think that I may have lost my ID card. Not exactly sure how/why, and I still haven't looked for it too intensely... but by all accounts it makes no sense. More on that later.

I also was locked out of my room for like 15 minutes because I left my keys in the room (which I never do). Thankfully Jamie came to my rescue!

Even so, today has been a good day! Learning to worship instead of worry. EMP was wonderful this morning!

This song has been running through my mind all day (it was played this morning before we started prayer)...

I waited patiently on the Lord, and He inclined and heard my cry
He pulled me up out of the miry clay, He set my feet upon a rock

He gave me Beauty for ashes and Joy for mourning
and Praise for heaviness; He put a new song in my mouth
And a crown on my head
He gave me Life forevermore!

He's been so Good, so, so good to me
So good, so so good to me!
So good, so, so good to me, Jesus!

'Cause He picked me up, and He turned me around
And He placed my feet on the solid ground, Hallelujah
Now I got love, and joy, and peace, and righteousness
In the Holy Spirit

"So Good to Me" by Cory Asbury

Sorry it's been a while since I've posted!

This weekend was pretty wonderful. It was the first weekend home that I didn't have any plans, which was actually really nice. I mostly worked on my painting for Design at home, relaxed, dressed up for Halloween, and got to hang out with some friends on Saturday a little! Wonderful.

This morning was really good, too! I got the amazing opportunity to help lead worship in Big Church. I even got to sing in the choir a little, which I've always wanted to do :). And it was BEAUTIFUL all weekend long. Ate with the Sheehans + Katie with my family at Mama's house after church. Wonderful!

AND... Friday night I had a redemptive dream! When I say that, I mean that I had a dream that is grounded on a theme similar to other dreams I've had that never, EVER turn out good. I'll explain what I mean. And, as a warning... you will probably want to roll your eyes or puke :), but whatever. Just bear with me. I'm ONLY sharing this because I know that I've posted about other dreams I've had of this sort in a negative light, so I want to redeem that!

So, most of you probably know the two things I dream about most: birthdays and weddings. Whether either of those are mine or others, I dream about it pretty often. Not sure why ;), but it probably has to do with the fact that they are two of my favorite things in the whole world that I also happen to think about in real life often... but I don't know. ;) ANYWAYS... so, my wedding dreams in the past have been pretty stinky. Most of the ones that actually have to do with MY wedding go something like this: It's wedding day, and everything is perfect and beautiful, and all my family is around, and there are a ton of decorations and everyone is happy... but there's no GROOM (sad, right? You can go ahead and cry for me if you want)! The other one that stands out is in the infamous Monkey Funeral dream (I actually never posted about it, oddly enough. But most of you have probably heard me recount the terrible experience. Here's the synopsis: it's my wedding day, barely ANY of my family/friends came, no decorations, I'm not even in a dress, I end up canceling it because I don't even like the person I'm marrying and no one was there. It was pathetic. And THEN, I look out the window, and on the lawn of my church is this HUGE event, with like a thousand people, and ALL of my friends and such from church. And what event could possibly be more important than my wedding? A funeral... for a monkey. That's right. There was music, decorations a dance floor, and, most importantly, all my friends and fam. I'm pretty sure I woke up crying).

Okay, so with that said, here was my dream Friday night (it's really short... most of the redemptive quality to it is the way that I FELT during the dream): Wedding day. The ceremony is in a really small plain, white room. There are no decorations. I am in a wedding dress, though. And there's a group of maybe 50 or so of my family and closest friends all sitting there in folding chairs. No bridesmaids or grooms or anything. Basically, the most simple wedding in the world. BUT... what I remember is this feeling of ultimate bliss that I can't even describe... and I FELT it, in my dream. I remember just smiling the entire time as the ceremony went on. It was the most beautiful thing in the world! The last thing I remember from that dream was walking down the aisle with the unidentified "Mr." and feeling SO completely happy and just plain wonderful, thinking... "I'm married!!!". And I could tell that me and the groom were just completely happy together and in love, and so excited when we finally were married. AND, what was also awesome is that I got the sense that everyone in the room was just as happy as I was. I remember looking into the small crowd and seeing familiar faces, all smiling and exuding happiness and such joy for us and this occasion. I just love how everything in the dream was so perfect, even without the frills and decorations and the usual things that are in my dreams when I dream about weddings. It just didn't matter. And I remember taking his hands when the pastor was doing his thing during the ceremony, and it seemed like we were the only two in the room. Ahh, it was just so perfect! :)

I apologize for being a girl :). But I really wanted to post this in light of the other dreams of this sort that I've had. I feel rested and resolved on this issue in general, and I think this kind of signifies/symbolizes that. I mean, I'm not like creepily into dreams and interpreting them, BUT I do think that they mean something, especially when considered that God is the dream-Maker. I mean, obviously, not all dreams have hidden meanings (aka, some can just be silly/for fun/scary/whatever), but some definitely do. The dreams I remember are pretty much always almost manifestations of my fears/what I'm worrying about or thinking about. Wedding dreams aren't even the half of it. I had COUNTLESS dreams about being late to work last year (and woke up crying for most of them), dreams where I woke up feeling rejected or unwanted, etc. The one that is most vivid in my mind and that has impacted me the most so far was one where I was told that I was going to die when I go to sleep. It felt SO real, and I went through so much emotion as I tried to fight it off, most of which were thoughts of being afraid of dying, I don't want to go yet, etc. (you can read the post about the dream here). That dream was one that kind of haunted me for a while, and actually had a lot to do with what I had to work through this summer at one point. Point being... I'm a very emotional person, and so my dreams are almost always emotional and affect me quite profoundly at times.

To relate this back to what I'm talking about, I think that all those terrible wedding dreams that I had were representative of my fear of not getting married when I want and all the other selfish things I was feeling towards that stuff in general. By the grace of God, though, I've felt an incredible peace about that subject lately. God is drawing me closer to Him, and showing me how to really seek Him with all of my heart that I may find Him (Jeremiah 29:13). I'm learning where my satisfaction and security should lie, and am now just in this time of eager anticipation of WHATEVER He has in store for me in the next few years. Of course, I still really, really want to get married, but it's for different reasons, and it's not a source of worry/fear/something that I think about constantly anymore. I still think about that stuff about 49% more than the average person :), but it's different.

All of this is to say that I think that that dream I had Friday night confirms this as well as gives me even MORE peace about this stuff. Woohoo! :)

Have a great week, all! :)