I should be sleeping...(it's 1 AM here in the Ukraine). but I cannot. Either due to insomnia, which has always been sort of a problem for me, or due to the fact that in houston it is 5 pm. Maybe a mixture.

Ukraine so far has been amazing. I'll detail later, but so far it's just been a bunch of meeting wonderful wonderful new people, snow, ice skating, walking, COLD, trying to learn to read/speak Russian, either not being able to sleep or going into random deep sleeps (flashes of insomnia and narcolepsy I suppose), and lots of Flying (3 flights- 14 hours total). With that last one comes LOTS of stories that will be told later. Don't eat pizza in the Kiev airport.

Mama and papa are wonderful. It feels as if they had never left.

I can see why they wouldn't mind staying here for a while!

Merry Christmas!!!!

It has been lovely.


Wish us luck as we fly to the Ukraine! We'll be back on the 4th. Don't miss us too much. : )

Woooo!!!

Saw Juno yesterday with Bree. It was pretty amaaaaazing. I'd recommend it. It's your regular feel-good movie with irregular awkward, straightforward characters.


Everything is hectic at the Roberts house. Mom's coming into my room about ever 5 minutes asking me for something else she needs to pack. Love you mom, but calm down! : )


eeee. I can't even believe it.

SCHOOL'S OUT, SCREAM AND SHOUT!!

Mmmm! Did great on finals. Well, great enough to keep A's. (91 for history, 70 for precal, hahhaa. But I still have an A in that class. I basically just didn't try on that final). Two more. but they are easy shmeasy.

Just saw the nutcracker! That was interesting.


Something that's come up a lot these past couple weeks that I've noticed about myself- I REALLY dislike unnecessary physical contact that I don't initiate or wish to take part in. Like, I don't care for hugs, and find it creepy when people are obsessed with them. Maybe one day this will change, but for now, I'm great with the little bubble I have established around myself.

Errr. this has been one of the better and one of the worser weeks. I'm kind of starting to lose it. I need to get away quick.
Better, because school for the semester is pretty much over. OVER OVER OVER. that means I can forget all that's happened this semester and approach a new beginning, and begin with poise and purpose.
Worser (which I guess is a word), because, I don't know. I freak out and go crazy and can't calm myself down sometimes. Planning band party, worst idea of my life. It's not happening now because everything is falling through, which, of course, I now feel is my fault. some people are vaguely angry about things (maybe that?) and I can't figure out why. I'm starting to learn that the assumption that I've apparently previously kind of sub-consciously had that certain people need me like I need them is false. and that I'm a terrible conversationalist and must work to improve this.

In alphabetical order. first things that come to mind.

A is for Apple Juice
B is for Birthdays
C is for Christmas
D is for Driving
E is for Eggs
F is for Fridays
G is for Gilmore girls
H is for High School Musical
I is for Interpretive Dancing
J is for Jello
K is for The Letter K
L is for Laughter
M is for Michael Vartan
N is for Nickel Creek
O is for Opinions

P is for Photography
Q is for Questions
R is for Roofs
S is for Singing
T is for Talking
U is for Umbrellas
V is for Volleyball
W is for Weddings
X is for Xylophones
Y is for Yo-Yos
Z is for Zippers

Ahh. This week is finally over. more confusion. Lots of excitement, met some interesting people, got a few hand blisters. my muscles are sore. the bass amp no longer scares me. lots of zzz's caught in school. speaking of, I had to be at that place at 5:15 today. ridiculous. playing at FCA was interesting. "awkward", of course, but whatever. Fun. I hope it's not a regular thing though.


and this weekend, I predict, will consist of gilmore girls, christmas present preparing, christmas parties (2 to be exact), and sleeping. maybe a movie here and there.

This blog is going to have to be quick (lots to do!), but I need to update.

This week could quite possibly the busiest week of my life! thankfully not too much homework, and I'm actually exaggerating when I say of my life, but you know what I mean. COTH (which I am SOOO excited about! I'm trying my best to not let the worry surrounding it overcome the excitement. I'm EXCITED. EXCITED.), and then, dun dun dun...the number one thing I never thought I'd see myself doing, ladies and gentlemen, playing the bass at FCA. At my SCHOOL. This Friday. I just had a 3 hour practice with Andrew and Preston. And I have another practice on Thursday. I mean, I'm really excited about this (I think?), all I'm saying is that I'm going to hate the bass guitar by the end of the week (to give you a little context- I'm hauling it and the like thousand pound bass amp back up to church tomorrow for COTH, then back home and to school on thursday, playing the bass for 2 in a half hours or so, then hauling it to church and playing for 2 hours on the same day, then bringing it to school Friday to play at FCA. Then, of course, to church on Sunday. I mean, I love the bass - I think - , but COME ON). In any case, this week will be over soon, and I will look back and be glad that I'm doing all these things. But as for now, I just gotta take it one day at a time and keep everything together and keep myself organized and NOT thinking too much about everything I must do.

I've come to the conclusion that for me to freak and and to think irrationally is for me to remain sane. And for me to maintain optimism.

That's all. They rock.



Oh, and, BY THE  WAY, I'm pretty sure the worst feeling in the world is waking up to like, 30 degree weather and having to get out of bed.

Eh, sorry I haven't been posting. Especially sorry for leaving y'all hanging after launching a new "series", haa. That will keep rolling very soon.

For now I have nothing much to say, except today was very good, and so was this weekend. I've decided I need to stop acting defeated all the time. School's actually going great- grades are stable thus far, got into NHS (though there's a lot of controversy considering it conflicts with Christmas on the Highway. gblaaaaargh.), and not that much stress. The stress for me now to replace the previous stress, of course, is Christmas presents! I'm trying to figure out what I'm doing for whom. I'm trying to be extra-thoughtful and giving this year. We'll see how it turns out. Because it's also going to have to be as...non-money as possible (you know what I mean). Still lots of changes happening with everyone (everyone else but me, it seems). Lot's of "like" in the air, or whatever, which I suppose I'm fine with. It's just still weird- I've never had friends of mine be all like, "buddy-buddy" like that before. You know what I mean. I just hope that nothing dramatic comes of it. Whatever. If there is, I won't be a part of it. I'm stayin' out of the game. Sorry this is all jumbled in one paragraph. I know that bothers some of the "tab key" supporters out there, but whatever. This is sort of how my mind's moving right now. Man. I've kind of experienced what it's like to be in a sort of dark and alone place lately. I can't say I like it. I just kind of need people in my life to...eh, I don't know. Never mind. I need a lot of things. On that note, mint chocolate chip ice cream sounds really good right now...