Take a look.

Breathe it in.

Just close your eyes, and imagine you are biking on an open road (on a Monday at 12:00, when, a week ago, you would have been sitting through History class waiting for the bell to ring).

The sun is glittering on your face and your arms, convincing every exposed pigment they must have a nice golden tint.

The subtle wind grows in intensity as you pedal faster and faster and faster!

You bike home to a nice, cold cup of lemonade and sit on a hammock in the shade and read a favorite book.





Now, take a look at this scene.

Peruse, if you can stand it.

Imagine you are one of those unfortunate people who must walk home. You didn't anticipate the rain, only the bitter cold, so you only have a warm wool jacket, which of course does no good in icy rain.

You are wearing flip flops because you barely own any closed-toed shoes, and you believe that you don't look good in close-toed shoes anyway. Your feet and the bottom of your pants are getting soaked.

You must keep your head down to rescue it from the harsh ice pins coming from the sky, whose only objectives are to sting any victim daring enough to parade their face- a brave endeavor, to be sure.

You must also keep your head down (...and your hands shoved in any pocket available... and your feet shuffled as close to each other as possible...) to trap any body heat you may have left to keep the blood moving at a speed faster than, well, no movement at all. And we all know what that means.

I can't even go on. I could cry over this scene. It's too much to bear. No one should have to suffer this.




I don't think I even need to present a case in this one.

Welp...not much to report. Everyday is a reminder that I don't have to worry. Yet I do anyway.

Got a new jacket! I love it.

THANKSGIVING IS COMING!
One day down, two to go (of school).
 Mashed potatoes, here I come...


Still waiting for summer. Gah!

Sorry for not being here. Days haven't been as perfect since my last post.

Today has been PERFECT!!!


Went to bed last night at 6:30, woke up at 1:30a.m. (weird, I know. it was accidental. but beautiful!), and then I stayed up all through the rest of the night and computered, watched lots of Zoey 101 and Hannah Montana and Full House :) Went outside to watch day break, took a nice shower, more t.v., gilmore girls, some homework, good nap, music...and most importantly...PAJAMAS ALL DAY!!!! Agh. Perfect. Perfect.


AND- tonight is "fall back" - one extra hour of sleep! :)


Just what I needed.

This week has been pretty up and down. Wednesday was pretty amazing! (for obvious reasons).
Wednesday I got reminded of Brandon Vick who died in 6th grade. I liked him in 5th grade. I cried for him for the first time.
Thursday was pretty bad. Mostly because of this arrogant punk in my history class who basically called me stupid and criticized everything I did in this group thing. I almost cried.
Thursday night was a low. I wish I had reasons to explain why, but I don't.

I've just been trying my best not to think about it and to act like I don't care. I must admit, it's very difficult.

Basically life's been a nonstop roll downhill. Gets faster and faster with time. Seems it won't ever stop. Ever. But it will. It's called Senior Year. It will be glorious.

Sigh. Just trying to keep focus and to not veer from what I know I must do and from what I know I am and Who my confidence is in. Trying not to feel stupid.


This weekend I am going to do nothing. + homework.
And I am out.