When I’m cold and alone all I want is my freedom
And a sudden gust of gravity
I stop wailing and kicking
Just to let this water cover me

Only if I rest my arms, rest my mind
You’ll overcome me and swell up around me
With my fighting so vain, with my vanity so fought
I’m rolling over

‘Cause in just the same way
That the stream becomes swollen
Swollen with cold up over the ground
When my heart draws close to the close of autumn
Your Love abounds

All the time I’m thinking
Wondering how would it be
To breathe in deep
I guess I need to be careful when I ask for a drink
(Just might get what I ask for)

And I know just what You’d say to me
That’s why I don’t ask You
What would I ask You?
I’m like a bullheaded boy these days
Crying my toy’s gone
You’re shiny and new

Guess I’ll drop my anger here
Before I float away
And the chains around me
An awful lot of talking
I don’t leave You much to say
You didn’t ever leave me

And my greatest fear
Was You’d leave me here
A long time back my feet
Could touch the bottom

I'll post later this week about World Mandate... I'm still processing. I will say these things about it:

1. It was very, very good (as I expected it to be); very challenging. Objectively, it was a great weekend

2. I was in a really weird place heart-wise Friday night, which was not expected

3. Some lies I am believing were exposed

4. I am very, very tired - physically, emotionally, spiritually. Today was one of those days I just came home and curled up in a ball in the bed to hide away from the world. Please be praying for me - my flesh has been rising up this weekend in ways I did not anticipate, and I believe there were even some spiritual attacks on me. All of this was pretty independent from the weekend itself, meaning it wasn't caused by World Mandate; it was kind of just a perfect storm of circumstances

And now I have a bit of homework to do for tommorrow. Seek His face, my friends.