"God does not look at how fervently we preach the gospel or how willingly we suffer for Him; He looks to see how obedient we are. God's kingdom begins when there is an absolute obedience to God - no voicing of opinion, no presenting of reasonings, no murmuring, no reviling... Wherever there is a church on this earth who truly obeys God's authority, there is the testimony of the Kingdom and there Satan is defeated. Satan is not afraid of our work so long as we act on the principle of rebellion. He only laughs in secret when we do things according to our own thoughts."
- Watchman Nee, Spiritual Authority
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Today has been... interesting! Quite emotional.
Dentist at 8:45 for a cleaning, and then was informed that I have FIVE cavities. I've only had like one cavity in my entire life, AND my last check up was in August, and the other dental place (we just recently changed) didn't inform me of this. In fact, since then, I've even been flossing once a day. Sigh. So, I just got back from an additional 2 hours in the dentist getting three fillings, and the entire left half of my mouth is completely numb, which is interesting. None of it hurt, obviously, but I just had no idea going on. It's interesting being awake, not being able to feel anything, and just closing your eyes while you hear all this whizzing and buzzing and feel all the vibrating. Every once in a while I would open my eyes and see, like, 10 metal gadgets sticking out of my mouth (okay, that's an exaggeration). Thankfully, they gave me this thing to listen to the radio on. (Which leads me to something else - I was only 96.5 for about 20-30 minutes, and, I promise you, there were 5 or 6 songs in a row that sounded like Nickelback. Not because of the content necessarily, but because of the generic sound. I'm assuming that 96.5 does not typically play 5 songs from the same band consecutively, which of course leads me to wonder why every alt rock band has to have a lead singer with that same scratchy, torturous voice. But I digress.)
In between my dentist experiences, mom, Andrew and I ate lunch at Campioni's, and then I went next door with my mom to the Potter's Wheel to paint some coasters for the living room.
While my mom was paying, one of the ladies asked me about college, which of course led to asking me what I'm going to do with my life - but only when the words "Christian", "ministry", "Bible" or what have you came out my mouth. Which led to a 5 minute lecture. Which, of course, led to an emotional meltdown in the car on the way home. Maybe I'll post more on that later... maybe when I can think a little more clearly. As of now, thinking about it still makes me want to cringe...
The chorus from a song off of Caedmon's "Long Line of Leavers" (the CD I got for $1 at Half-price - best dollar I've ever spent!)...
Give me Your hand to hold
‘Cause I can’t stand to love alone
And love alone is not enough to hold us up
We’ve got to touch Your robe
So swing Your robe down low
